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William S. Gainer
A Weekend in a Poem Noir

 

1959,

September,

a hot Friday

afternoon.

He’s late,

she’s tired of waiting...

 

She’s sitting at the street side

kitchen window,

a glamour magazine,

bottle of Johnnie Walker – Red,

a tall glass – half empty,

a Texaco gratuity ashtray – full

and a tube of  that cherry-bomb red lipstick

he likes so much – laying

on the table in front of her,

the noise of the city – calling...

 

Her note said,

“My black dress,

I’m wearing it,

the shoes

with the thin heels,

silver,

those too.

The pearls you gave me for my birthday,

you'll have to restring them,

they're scattered

on the bathroom floor,

watch your step...

 

Don’t bother looking

or waiting up,

there’re places in this town

even you don’t know.

And if it’s a fight you want,

I’m in a mood,

you better tough-up – buddy..."

 

She rolled in late,

or early

depending on

which side of the day

you’re looking at –

three-thirty, four in the morning.

He didn't say a word,

just whispered,

"Missed you baby,"

held the covers for her.

She climbed in

purred, "Me too..."

 

They slept late,

well into the day,

him with those bothersome dreams,

knowing not to ask..

Her with the smell of gin and gun oil

on her fingers tips

and that lump of pearl handled

chrome

under her pillow,

knowing

he wouldn't...

 

Later she'd cook breakfast.

they'd drink beer with their eggs,

talk about going to the beach

on Sunday...

Never With Wishes

 

It appears

the attorneys feel

it is very import

to know

what to do

when you’re done.

 

They sat up an appointment,

called me in,

asked the questions –

it was a middle aged woman...

 

I told her

I didn’t care.

She insisted

that people need

to know

what my wishes are;

what to do with my remains,

how to dispose

of my assets.

 

I told her,

“When I’m done, I’m done –

it’s someone else’s problem.”

She insisted,

said I must have given it

some thought.

I said, “Maybe a little.”

She said, “There you go,

what is it?”

 

I told her –

“Rather than using

embalming fluid,

I’d like them to load me up

with gasoline,

tell the guy

running the crematorium

to stand back

when he throws the match.

 

I want to go off

like a Roman Candle,

shoot flames,

pieces of flesh,

hair,

bone

and eyeball

200 feet in the air.

 

I want the morning headlines

to read,

His Cremation Didn’t Go Well,

but we’ll know the truth,

you and me,

won’t we?”

 

She clicked her ball-point,

flipped the page on her yellow note-pad

and with a blank stair said,

“You gotta be kidding?”

 

I told her,

“Never with wishes kid,

never.”




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