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Dan Raphael
"not that kind of river"
we’re slimmer    younger    prettier    at legendary crossroads wavering gallant & shiny

                            could be tomorrow

                           sudden as a pocket

the strings in my breath are the streets ive plowed below with neon snorkel

two bells,   three meters,   each eye a gauge of volume and intensity

refracted like the smoke of rapid growth--calcium frying, neurons ungirdling

into moats of lost days when neither sun or moon is watching, on & off ramps intertwined continuum, involuntary escalators inside my 50 story body mince cerulean,    chartreuse,    ultraviolet

as the sun changes like fashion in low budget hands 

                                          i can make this tourniquet sing like a cello

or a 3 legged introvert pressed against the sill-less windows

smeared with the footprints of the hurried, harried and honey-dipped shadows of this monsoon city with colorful scarves flying from the faucets, light bulbs long eaten, streets wet with anticipation

a dozens of us dance the street, lightly across cars not alarming, im an airbag of love,

a cupholder of understanding, see how my eyes show you where to turn,

we go where we’re pulled, arriving at an empty lot in a future suburb, six trees like guitar strings amplified by blind relentless woodpeckers drilling away the cavities where pestilence simmers like bread dough eager to be punched into itself, studying  the worlds we exhale every day,

unable to watch what we ruffle and rend, the microns of flesh we trade with every step

inaccessible without a torch and several passwords from liquid movies

we swoon into a choreography of masks and vanishing dancers,

the street is a river full of genetically engineered water we can breathe

and see through, the gills that withered in our wombs cauliflower open

like the new green sun rising in the south
                 "Swimming in the Streets"   

      
        “she was doubled over, like there were two of her, the one

          who’d done the running and the one who didn’t know why” 

                                                       don delillo

if the streets had no names could I get home,

if I couldn’t count the blocks & curbs sluicing glacial water,

downhill ice glistening from a thousand suns,      sun in so many windows

                           now the curtains been eaten

               pressed between newspapers soaked from the bottom of wastecans

                     skin must be peeled,    pores rubbed into powder

one of these houses is mine:

                        I walk to myself, rumpling like a congery of abandoned clothes

when the wind whips

when the truck disintegrates        all it carried

the driver thought the truck knew where to unload

                                          we couldn’t jump that high

             my hand wont open like a flower--

                  the vein in the middle       sliding in several needles at once

across a room of shutters & shattered baths,     hallways with names,   

i stand before my reflection does     door made of sky

the house spits me onto the street and folds away like an indecisive newspaper 

if thumbs had wings

to whistle when nipped

chewing like beavers gazing at the chunky stream

barely lit, refreshingly absent

hands go through like gloves shot from guns

a time few got far

shirt made of someone else’s skin

responses to responses

folded into the batter poured among bricks:

straight waves,   like escalators on their sides,    beached when the city moved,.

I wanted to be effervescent but didn’t know how to start

I don’t want my property to keep going

with a wind rising from my feet      simulating readiness

neither hand knows         walking backwards perhaps

rising from a paved horizon

stopped by something hard throughout

my practice is never the same

melting in my hand     mouthing frostbite

a fly on each side

odorless traffic

hands clasped like a bell pepper

that’s not rain


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