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David Mclean
blood in a bucket



time is blood in a bucket nobody minds,
and it is the timeless finitude of eroded eternity,
like scraps of paper on a pavement
where holocausts have happened,
uneventful yet like heaven.

time runs out of me like light
so i am empty, the scratching stylus
that inscribes my crippling history in me,
so i am a palimpsest defacing children
i was already, forever.

no death lives forever in a bucket of blood,
where nerves and hormones and subservient
sinews punish nothing through indecision,
and deface the fatuous statuary of life with night
and abortion, insecticide and torture,

since heaven was invented for men who are dead
already, forever – death will not make them better,
but the flesh and skin shall fall from me dreamless
like rats deserting a sinking ship
whenever forgetfulness of “i” is -

bones, a brief stench, all this



vagitus



words' worth is this quavering
vagitus, whereby we inscribe
a child's unknowing, a cry,
the empty authority
of nothing here, these emptinesses
inside our night

notoriously able-bodied murderers
like every saint, every sinner,
provokingly invoking sanity, and the sound
is the lustful blood of the brutal etymon,
resounding silent like our timely void

that means this abrupt nothing, copious
semiosis filling greedy gullets
with meaning's seed, time's logical
sodomy inside us, suckers,
just lust and, thus,

a quavering vagitus of these vagrant
babies “we” is, just dead bodies
in the dust, empty
life, empty love,
just us and nothingness






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